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A Sinner in Mecca: A Gay Muslim's Hajj of Defiance Paperback – August 15, 2017
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Based on the New York Times' Critic Pick documentary
"The first book about the Hajj from a gay perspective, written by a man with a deep knowledge of Islamic history. This pilgrimage is the centerpiece of his book, and he recounts it with courage and fierce emotion."
—The Guardian
This is the Islam you've never been allowed to see. Daringly reported from its frontlines and forbidden to most of humanity for centuries.
The Hajj pilgrimage is a journey every Muslim is commanded by God to go on at least once in a lifetime if they are able and, like millions, Parvez Sharma believes his spiritual salvation lies at Islam's ground zero, Mecca. But unlike the journeys of his fellow Muslims, the consequences of his own could be deadly.
In A Sinner in Mecca, author, filmmaker, and 2018 Guggenheim Fellow Parvez chronicles his pilgrimage as a very openly gay Muslim to Saudi Arabia, where Islam's heart beats . . . and where being true to himself is punishable by death. Risking his life, Parvez embarks on a Jihad of the self—filming his experience along the way. Already under fire for his documentary A Jihad for Love, which looks at the coexistence of Islam and homosexuality, he would undoubtedly face savage punishment if exposed—from being thrown off a cliff to public beheading.
Parvez's odyssey is at once audacious, global, and remarkable. He meets everyone from extremists to explorers of the spiritual kind and the world they open up is frightening . . . yet breathtaking. In Mecca, Parvez comes out to a pilgrim, who then asks him why he would want to be part of something that wants no part of him. This book is his answer to this question and many more. Parvez provides an unflinching look at our troubling unfolding history, including Hizbullah, ISIS, Trump, the race-wars, an embattled Europe, and more. He offers real solutions, borne of his efforts to get his hands dirty to find them. This is a lived history—and its author is no armchair theorist.
Following the New York Times Critics' Pick hit documentary of the same title, A Sinner in Mecca unflinchingly showcases parts of the dangerous ideology that governs today's ISIS and how much it has in common with Saudi Arabia's sacred, yet treacherous dogma, Wahhabi Islam.
A Sinner in Mecca is simultaneously one man's personal odyssey as well as a groundbreaking, provocative revelation of a clandestine world and its fastest growing and most contested religion.
- Print length330 pages
- LanguageEnglish
- PublisherBenBella Books
- Publication dateAugust 15, 2017
- Dimensions6 x 0.9 x 8.9 inches
- ISBN-101944648372
- ISBN-13978-1944648374
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""The first book about the Hajj from a gay perspective, written by a man with a deep knowledge of Islamic history. This pilgrimage is the centerpiece of his book, and he recounts it with courage and fierce emotion.""
—The Guardian
""You will never think the same way about Saudi Arabia and Islam after reading this beautifully written book.""
—Washington Book Review
""Sharma's spiritual search is intimate and careful, and ultimately one of understanding.""
—Foreword Reviews
""Sharma's . . . book uses that trip not only to gain perspective on extremists and religion, but as a glass to view the world here in the United States, the challenges felt by the Muslim community, and the oppressive weight of the Trump admisistration.""
—Towerload
""Parvez's heroism is rare and his courage well-documented. Putting his own life at risk, he takes us on a surprising and compelling journey through the frontlines of his much contested faith. A brilliant follow up to his films, A Jihad for Love and A Sinner in Mecca.""
—Reza Aslan, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Zealot
""In our lives, we face a choice of whether to live with judgment or reach deep within ourselves to find an inner moral compass that leads us to a metaphorical Mecca of unconditional love. With his powerful, brave book, A Sinner in Mecca, Parvez Sharma takes us on his hero's pilgrimage, teaching us of an ethereal truth: the qibla, or direction of Mecca, resides within each one of our hearts.""
—Asra Q. Nomani, author of Standing Alone: An American Woman's Struggle for the Soul of Islam
""Parvez Sharma's Hajj pilgrimage is not only a journey to Mecca but to his deepest self. Both a Muslim and an out gay man, Sharma writes bravely and brilliantly. His religion is ancient. His story is timeless.""
—Kevin Sessums, New York Times bestselling author of Mississippi Sissy and I Left It On the Mountain
""Sharma's gripping journey unfolds with cinematic splendor, giving those of us who will never experience the hajj firsthand the next best thing. This book examines modern Islam's beauty and its ugliness with an unflinching gaze and a hopeful vision for its future.""
—Cole Stryker, author of Hacking the Future and Epic Win for Anonymous
""As a gay man and a Muslim, Parvez Sharma's unique personal journey is reflected in this powerful examination of faith, sexuality, and gender. In a divided world, Sharma fearlessly crosses the boundaries and barriers that separate us from each other and finds common ground in the search for love and truth.""
—Cleve Jones, author of When We Rise
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"The first book about the Hajj from a gay perspective, written by a man with a deep knowledge of Islamic history. This pilgrimage is the centerpiece of his book, and he recounts it with courage and fierce emotion."
—The Guardian
"You will never think the same way about Saudi Arabia and Islam after reading this beautifully written book."
—Washington Book Review
“Sharma’s spiritual search is intimate and careful, and ultimately one of understanding.”
—Foreword Reviews
"Sharma’s . . . book uses that trip not only to gain perspective on extremists and religion, but as a glass to view the world here in the United States, the challenges felt by the Muslim community, and the oppressive weight of the Trump admisistration."
—Towerload
—Reza Aslan, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Zealot "In our lives, we face a choice of whether to live with judgment or reach deep within ourselves to find an inner moral compass that leads us to a metaphorical Mecca of unconditional love. With his powerful, brave book, A Sinner in Mecca, Parvez Sharma takes us on his hero’s pilgrimage, teaching us of an ethereal truth: the qibla, or direction of Mecca, resides within each one of our hearts." —Asra Q. Nomani, author of Standing Alone: An American Woman’s Struggle for the Soul of Islam “Parvez Sharma's Hajj pilgrimage is not only a journey to Mecca but to his deepest self. Both a Muslim and an out gay man, Sharma writes bravely and brilliantly. His religion is ancient. His story is timeless.” —Kevin Sessums, New York Times bestselling author of Mississippi Sissy and I Left It On the Mountain “Sharma's gripping journey unfolds with cinematic splendor, giving those of us who will never experience the hajj firsthand the next best thing. This book examines modern Islam's beauty and its ugliness with an unflinching gaze and a hopeful vision for its future.” —Cole Stryker, author of Hacking the Future and Epic Win for Anonymous
"As a gay man and a Muslim, Parvez Sharma's unique personal journey is reflected in this powerful examination of faith, sexuality, and gender. In a divided world, Sharma fearlessly crosses the boundaries and barriers that separate us from each other and finds common ground in the search for love and truth."
—Cleve Jones, author of When We Rise
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- Publisher : BenBella Books (August 15, 2017)
- Language : English
- Paperback : 330 pages
- ISBN-10 : 1944648372
- ISBN-13 : 978-1944648374
- Item Weight : 13.4 ounces
- Dimensions : 6 x 0.9 x 8.9 inches
- Best Sellers Rank: #3,275,102 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
- #1,180 in Radical Political Thought
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- #4,361 in LGBTQ+ Biographies (Books)
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- Reviewed in the United States on August 20, 2017Like its author, this book resists easy labels and classification. Combining elements of family memoir, political analysis, history, exegesis, cloak-and-dagger meetings, and gay hookups, "A Sinner in Mecca" exposes religious intolerance -- and its economic and colonial underpinnings -- and celebrates the beauty of faith in its most intimate, personal form. An antidote to 'soundbite journalism,' this book should be read by anyone who wants to better understand the miraculous complexity of the world.
- Reviewed in the United States on August 13, 2017I was lucky to pre-order and get it a week ago. It reads like a thriller. I have been a fan of the author's film work and I expected the book would be like the film of the same title. I was proven wrong. It's a very well-written memoir interwoven with current politics in the US and in the Middle East, Indian sub-continent and elsewhere in the Muslim world. He makes it clear that the so-called "war" between the West and Islam will not be over in this generation or the next. Most importantly and I have read many Islamic authors, he offers a gritty, from the ground perspective and many carefully researched and thought out solutions to the "problem with Islam." It's definitely a spiritual journey, but it also tells you how the corrupt Saudi monarchy, or the theocracy in Iran and even more critically ISIS work. I was surprised by what I learned through his insightful and experience based analysis. A must-read, I am recommending it to all my friends interested in what is really going on within Islam and for that matter Trump's leaky White House.
- Reviewed in the United States on September 12, 2017Amazon quotes Publishers Weekly as calling the book "fascinating." That's it. Here's what PW actually said, "Ultimately, the work is fascinating but flawed, with many of its important topics tackled haphazardly; more reflective insight into Sharma’s own faith journey, for example, might have tied the narrative together more closely."
- Reviewed in the United States on August 14, 2017I had never heard of this guy and chanced upon the title because the Amazon algorithm 'recommended' it to me. I started reading and I could not stop. I am an Adjunct at UT Austin and I have used texts from big authors like Karen Armstrong and John Esposito for my middle-east and religious philosophy students. I am adding this new author as a must read for my students from now on. Why? Because I have never read such a hands-on, completely raw, and deeply felt and researched account of what Islam really is and what it means to be a Muslim who knows he cannot say it is a religion of peace, because that is reductive. If you really want to understand why ISIS is doing what it is and where they learnt it from, read this! One fault--I wish he had given us a little more of his fascinating personal history. But hey, nothing is perfect. This though, comes close to it!
- Reviewed in the United States on August 14, 2017Sharma's journeys, from the India of his childhood to modern Saudi Arabia, are at times hilarious, harrowing, and deeply moving. He brings the Hajj pilgrimage to life with a filmmaker's eye for color and detail. But this is more than just a good story--it's a stand against lazy labels and easy solutions. Sharma doesn't shy away from the violence and bigotry of modern Islam, and he provides a crucial understanding of the history and psychology of ISIS (or as he correctly refers to them, Daesh). He deftly explains how it got to be this way, and provides powerful insights that could lead to a better world.
- Reviewed in the United States on August 16, 2017Read this book. Whether you agree with the author's views or not, the book compels you to be thoughtful, questioning and thorough in your reading. The book is a profoundly personal recounting of the author 's engagement with his faith, his sexuality, his identity and his politics and in this it is crucially contemporary. Through provoking and challenging his readers the author encourages them to debate, critique and discuss his book and in so doing, expands the discourse.
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- PeterReviewed in Canada on May 5, 2018
5.0 out of 5 stars ... copy of "A Sinner In Mecca" arrived in near perfect condition. A great value at this low
This paperback copy of "A Sinner In Mecca" arrived in near perfect condition. A great value at this low, low price.
- Dave AnsellReviewed in the United Kingdom on September 28, 2017
5.0 out of 5 stars Buy this and the DVD!
As a gay man who has lived in Kuwait and Egypt, but am not a Muslim, I was intrigued by the description of this book. I was expecting more of a 'gay' content than I found, and was probably a little silly to expect this. The previous reviewer who gave just three stars would appear not to be a gay man, and does not have an understanding of what the gay life means for many guys, even those who are married. The Middle East has thousands of closeted gays, and so it should come as no surprise that Parvez should find some in Mecca - but not many. His book may be too academic for some who do not have a great interest in the Islamic faith. But it is approachable and gives a very useful glossary at the end. Parvez explains how his pilgrimage did have great spiritual meaning and strengthened him as a Muslim.
I bought the film - A Sinner in Mecca - having first read book as I was intrigued to see what he had filmed on his iPhone. I was surprised by the quality of his filming - a lot better than I had expected. As a non-Muslim, I am not allowed in Mecca but this film gives a brilliant idea of what it is like and certainly adds to the experience gained from reading the book. . It shows the terrible modernisation/commercialisation of Mecca but also brings out the spiritual experience, as Parvez makes clear in his book. If you have read the book, then do buy this film. (If you have not read the book but have the film, buy the book too!) The DVD was described as region 1 but is region-less, so it will play on DVD players set to region 2 (Europe).
If, like me, you want another picture of modern Mecca then buy Desert of a Pharon by Ahmed Mater. This is a big photo book (over 600 pages) and gives a very good idea of what has happened to Mecca in recent years and what was experienced by Parvez.
- Hicham bouzidReviewed in Germany on July 17, 2023
5.0 out of 5 stars I didn’t get the book yet. Probably it will never come
It must be an interesting story, but I don’t think I will ever read it since it hasn’t come.
- oudeisReviewed in the United Kingdom on February 12, 2018
1.0 out of 5 stars One of the worst books I have read.
Awful book. Sharma comes across as confused and at times frankly dishonest. As an Indian he seems totally unaware of the devastation wrought in his native land by centuries of Muslim invasions and jihads carried out by Islamised parts of India to subdue parts that still had Hindu rulers. He only mentions the likes of Akbar and never the Aurangzebs! He puts forward no solution to undo the damage that the Saudi promulgation of Salafism has wrought worldwide. Reading this book shows how barmy religion in general and Islam in particular is. Full of irrational OCD rubbish that no really intelligent person could swallow even if brainwashed with it as a child. Wish I had never wasted my money on this book.